i read angies blog under"if you are sensitive". in this she talked about her childhood and how she felt when she went to live with her dad. i honestly understood how as a child she might of felt, how scary it might of been for her, and how it has made her who she is today. i have my memories too, those i keep close to myself, i dont share, i put away to avoid the shame, hurt, and feeling of loss...loss of my daughter. everything going on in my life at that time was like walking around in circles. there was no ed\nd to any of my pain, i didnt even know what was going on with myself. in some ways, having asked my dad could i bring the girls with me to live with him till i got on my feet, no where to go or job, and him saying no, leaves me with feelings like angie might of felt. like being misplaced and no ground to land on. i knew i had nothing to offer the girls, no future, place, job, and i was nothing. going with their dad was a sure thing for them, with the right person, the good one, the one that would be good for them. i had no answers for anything in my life, i didnt want them so see this. i believe that made me what i am for many years, very self destructive. i didnt deserve any happiness, and i would destroy any goodness in my life.